As is
habit, I was going to take my evening ‘sabbatical’ last night when events took
a surreal turn. I turned on the light and saw a small beetle on the floor. Without
thinking, I tore off a piece of tissue paper and scooped the little guy up and
threw him into the toilet. However, I did take the time to think that I’d throw
the toilet paper so that the bug could not swim out from underneath it when it
hit the water. Basically, between the time I scooped the beetle up and the time
I was sending him into the toilet, I had consciously set out to drown him. I
didn’t even bother to immediately flush the toilet and put the bug out of his
misery much less out of my mind so that I didn’t have time to reconsider what I’d
just done. Surely, most people don’t second guess themselves on such things.
But I’m
not most people. As the beetle struggled mightily, I thought to myself Why am I watching him drown? Why am I
killing him when I could have easily taken him outside? After all, the bug
had done nothing to harm me; I just didn’t want it in the house. And so I took
extreme measures against a life. I thought about this for a moment. It was
certainly within my power not to kill the beetle. I could take it outside and
it could go on doing whatever it does, no harm no foul. I reconsidered my
actions, got a glass and scooped the bug out of the water and set him on the
front porch. Too late; he was dead. This made me feel terrible.
I usually
take bugs out of the house with the exceptions being roaches and ants, which I
kill for (presumably) very good reasons. (Actually, I don’t always kill
roaches, but I probably should.) But in almost all other cases, I relocate
insect outside of the house. Why? For one thing, it is awfully arrogant for me
to assume some kind of special status based upon my particular form of life. What
makes a human being any more special than a beetle? Because we can think and
have emotions and reflect upon these mental events? Because we are not bugs or
some other species of animal we have run roughshod over, humans automatically ascend
to arrogance in thinking that another form of life doesn’t have an inner world,
much less an inner world worthy of respect. (Note that this kind of thinking has
long been the excuse for genocide or otherwise treating differing ethnicities
poorly.) We don’t know what it is like to be any other life form, so I do not
ascend to the arrogance the rest of my brood display. Unfortunately, I happen
to be of a species that needs to kill and eat other living things to survive.
(Yes, Virginia, even plants are living things.) That makes me sad when I think
about it.
Another
reason I take bugs back outside the house is because it is so much easier to
kill something we tower over than it is to respect its life. But consider the
hypothetical situation in which giant hostile aliens with advanced technology
descend upon the Earth and begin to lay waste to humanity. Why wouldn’t any
such aliens laugh at us while we scurry for cover or plead for mercy? I am not
trying to say it would be some kind of cosmic retribution, rather I am saying
that’s just how the animal kingdom works, based on how we humans react to it. If
we have no mercy for bugs or other life forms, we cannot plead for mercy (at
least not without being pitiful) when the Hangman comes for us. That is, unless
we really are the special animals we keep telling ourselves we are.
So I try
to respect life, not because it will allow me to reason with or plead for mercy
with the hostile aliens, but because it is the road less travelled and because I have the power to refrain from killing.
Isn’t that supposed to be one of humanity’s nobler traits? I’m not going to say
I am the most noble human being ever to live, but surely any bug would rather
deal with me late in the evening than deal with most of the rest of you lot.
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